The lovely Lindsay Christensen and Antigone "Tiggy" (4 weeks).
Lindsay had always heard that getting pregnant would take awhile but things happened quickly for she and her husband. She imagined she'd be thrilled but cried the first week as everything settled in. She came to a place of acceptance and her pregnancy went well. She had hoped to have a natural birth and was terrified of having a cesarean but learned at 36 weeks that her daughter was breech. She says that people told her a healthy baby was all that matters and that she could always attempt a VBAC next time, but her birth experience was important to her and they don't plan to have any other children.
Lindsay says that her birth was horrible and she felt that she wasn't a part of the experience. From a bad reaction to the anesthia to feeling entirely disconnected from the process when her baby emerged from the other side of the curtain. In the days following, Lindsay has struggled to find that connection with and love for her baby but it is slowly improving with each day. This past week especially she's started to feel like they are getting there.
Lindsay previously had a breast reduction surgery and knew that may impact her ability to breastfeed but wanted to try anyway. Antigone was nursing for very long periods and still very hungry so they introduced formula. Lindsay's supply has continued to dwindle but she's still able to nursing once per day and is happy to do it for as long as she can. She says her daughter is getting fat and happy either way!
Through this experience Lindsay is hoping to further foster the bond with her daughter she's been trying to establish. Her body reverted back to almost exactly the way it was prior to getting pregnant which has it's perks but has contributed to her feeling distanced and removed. Above all else, she hopes to capture this short time before it's gone and have an experience that she and her daughter can look back on together.