The lovely Harley Krein, mother to Vanna (Pictured - December 11, 2012 - July 10, 2013), Sora and Roxas (20 months) and Juneau (6 weeks).
Harley had an easy pregnancy with her first daughter until she went into the doctor at 33 weeks and learned her water had broke the week prior. She stayed in hospital for 7 days until she was induced at 34 weeks. Vanna stayed in NICU for three weeks before coming home and continued to do well. Harley's husband is in the military and deployed when Vanna was just 7 days old. He returned in early July and just a few days later Vanna died in her sleep due to SIDS. It was the first night that Harley had placed Vanna in her crib to sleep alone. She got up for her normal feed at 3 am but her daughter was still soundly sleeping so she went back to bed herself. When Harley woke at 6am she immediately feared that something was wrong and discovered that her baby was no longer breathing. The EMT's came but weren't able to do anything as she had already been gone for too long.
Just a month after Vanna passed Harley learned she was pregnant again. She discovered very early on that she was carrying twins and soon after that they were both boys. Things went very well until she went into preterm labor again at 30 weeks. She was dilated to 5 or 6 cms by time she arrived at the hospital and though they were able to stop her labor she was admitted for a full month. She was released at 34 weeks but she began having contractions three days later and went into the hospital again. They sent her home and she returned just hours later at 7 cms dilated. Her water broke in triage and she able to give birth to her boys vaginally without complication at 34 weeks, 6 days. They were both head down initially but after Sora was born, Roxas flipped and was delivered breech. The boys stayed in NICU for a week to gain weight and have done very well since they came home.
After bringing her twins home Harley found herself quite scared that SIDS would happen again, and this time had two babies to worry about. On top of her worry, the boys cried constantly for their first three months of life. She was trying to breastfeed them but they had become lethargic and were losing weight. She discovered they had a cow's milk allergy and chose to stop nursing. After switching to a specialty formula the boys symptoms got better and they were much happier babies.
Harley developed postpartum depression in the months after her boys were born. She sought help and was able to start feeling better after about 5 months. She simultaneously began feeling really sick - her joints were aching and she was exhausted and initially thought it was just depression but learned she had hypothyroidism. She began taking medication and was feeling better but learned when her boys were 10 months old that she was pregnant again. She had hoped to pursue further treatment but was told she'd need to wait to see a rheumatologist until after her pregnancy with Juneau.
At 34 weeks pregnant with Juneau, Harley's mother in law came down to help with her boys in hopes she could make it to term. She had a healthy pregnancy aside from pain and sciatica and had hoped to have her first labor and delivery without an epidural. After she was induced with Pitocin, she changed her mind around 6 cms. She needed to wait an hour as the anesthesiologist was attending a cesarean birth and by time they placed the epidural, they broke her water and she was ready to push well before she was numb. Juneau has been very healthy and Harley is hoping to breastfeed exclusively.
Harley has always had a difficult time with her body image and hopes that participating and sharing her story helps not only her personally but other women as well.