The gorgeous Jill Geritano with her son Hudson (14 months). Jill had a very healthy pregnancy with no real complications. She had planned for a natural childbirth, took Bradley classes with her husband and hired a doula to support her. Jill's water broke at home but contractions hadn't started yet. Her midwife told her to get some rest but very quickly contractions ramped up first 4 minutes apart, then quickly steady at 2. They were admitted to the hospital and she was progressing well. Once in the pushing phase she saw the nurses come in with the baby cot and knew she'd get to meet her son soon. She pushed and pushed and somewhat lost track of time. Eventually the nurses left and her midwife kept coming in and out of the room. She kept pushing but her son was sunny side up and was not descending. After about 4 hours she was asked to consent to a cesarean. The OB said they were in danger but her midwife assured her that both of their heart rates were fine, he just wasn't coming on his own. She eventually consented to the cesarean even though she was upset that her dreams of a natural birth wouldn't be fulfilled. The OR wasn't ready so they gave Jill medication to stall her labor and prevent her from pushing. It didn't work so they gave her more and by time she was taken to the OR for delivery 3 hours later she was on so much medication she doesn't remember her son being born. Jill is grateful that her son was allowed to have skin to skin with her husband while she recovered but was then worried about how the surgery would affect her ability to breastfeed. Jill worked with lactation staff in the hospital but found nursing to be very painful. Thankfully she stuck through it and despite the pain, Hudson continued to feed and grow and gain weight. Jill has had a lot of difficult feelings regarding her birth and found herself entirely depleted in her first few months home with her new baby. Hudson cried non-stop and she was fearful of even leaving the house. While he never had an official diagnosis she suspects he had colic. At about 6 months postpartum, Jill had a few days of insomnia and realized she was approaching her edge. She asked her husband and mom for help and went to see her midwife straight away. She was immediately diagnosed with Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. Jill has found that building out time for herself, naturopathy, yoga and acupuncture have all done a bit to help her feel better. Jill said that by 10 months postpartum she had begun to feel a little better but that it wasn't until recently that she's really started to feel most herself again. At 7 months old Hudson was diagnosed with both a lip and tongue tie and Jill was happy to have finally figured out why nursing had been such a struggle. Jill says that one of most important lessons motherhood has taught her is that no matter your plans sometimes things happen differently. She is still hoping to find her tribe of women and mothers who support her decisions and style of motherhood and has found that sense of community more important now than ever before.