The gorgeous Jill Jorgensen, Patricia (stillborn at 31 weeks in 2012), Anna (3), and Maja (6 months).
Jill absolutely loves being pregnant and her first pregnancy was going very well. She and her husband took a baby moon to celebrate when she was 31 weeks and she had a dream that her baby had passed away. She realized over the next few days that she wasn't feeling her move as much and went to the doctor on Monday morning, without her husband, where an ultrasound revealed her baby had no heartbeat. Jill remembers the details of that morning in such vivid detail and regrets not having her husband come along. When she went into the hospital for induction, she was started on Pitocin and given Ambien so she could sleep, thinking that she would be able to sleep through the night and labor in the morning. Jill woke up to find that Patricia had been born in her sleep, in the caul. She was so grateful to have met her daughter so peacefully and spared of the pain of pushing.
Jill and her husband knew right away that they wanted to try to have another baby. They knew that Patricia wouldn't want them to be sad and depressed so they continued moving forward. The cause of Patricia's death was never determined even with autopsy so they knew they'd watch carefully and were able to conceive about 4 months later. Jill was monitored closely and knew that after having an unexplained still birth, the chances of it happening again were 1 in 20. They prepared for that possibility but she didn't prepare for delivering prematurely. At 26 weeks, Jill went in to discover that she was dilated to 3 or 4 cms and her baby was coming. Anna was breech and she was delivered via emergency cesarean where they realized that Jill had a uterine septum which they removed. Anna had to be immediately transferred to a different hospital and had a 12 week stay in the NICU. She developed grade 3/4 bilateral IVH and hydrocephalus for which she now has a VP shunt. Anna has hemiplegic cerebral palsy as well and is doing beautifully today.
Jill and her husband knew that they wanted to have more children and felt ready to try when Anna was two. They were able to conceive Maya without complication. Jill was again watched very closely throughout this pregnancy due to her history of stillbirth and unknown premature delivery. They realized her cervix had begun to open around 23 weeks and she had an emergency cerclage placed and was put on bed rest for a couple of weeks. Jill had her stitch removed at 35 weeks and expected Maya to arrive quickly there after but she held on until 38 weeks when she was delivered via a triumphant VBAC.
Jill has been through so much as a mother and she celebrates every bit of life and loss she encountered on the way. As a former dancer, she struggled with disordered eating and body image for many years and is in a space where her body is much different but has done the work of growing her three beautiful girls. Jill hopes that sharing her story and sharing each of her daughters lives not only captures these moments for her but touches others who have been there as well.