The beautiful Emily Verdegan with her youngest, Olive (6.5 months). Emily is also mom to Aaron (2.5). Emily never thought she wanted to have children in part because she heard from so many women that pregnancy and childbirth had ruined their bodies. She also has OCD that often manifests itself in focusing on her physical appearance. She got pregnant with Aaron by surprise and while she had a perfectly healthy pregnancy and birth, even practicing yoga, running and dancing right up to birth, she was internally very depressed. Emily is adopted and having a biological connection to her own child brought up many difficult feelings. While she had a seamless vaginal delivery, she labored for about 27 hours, after an epidural at 24 hours she pushed for 3 hours and her son was born. After birth, she continued to have a very difficult time and was hospitalized for a week for psychiatric treatment. In treatment, she learned a wealth of tools to help her cope and heal. Her second pregnancy was planned and things were so much better for Emily and Olive throughout her pregnancy, birth and postpartum. She had the water birth she wanted and has a beautiful breastfeeding relationship with her girl.