The beautiful Hannah Brady, mother to Seth Michael (4), Aden (2). Hannah recently lost a pregnancy at 7 weeks and is currently 11 weeks pregnant.
Hannah was just 19 when she got pregnant with Seth Michael, she had a difficult pregnancy, full of all day sickness, bed rest and terrible acid reflux. Because she was young, she didn't want to be misinformed so she threw herself into the pregnancy and took her bed rest as a time to research everything baby, and figure out how she wanted to raise her baby. Hannah was induced at 39 weeks, after Seth stopped grow at 6lbs and began to lose some weight. Hannah labored for 13 hour labor and opted for an epidural as soon as she was able, which allowed her to be more comfortable.
Hannah says that she instantly feel in love with motherhood but also remembers crying a lot in those early days. They were living in Tennessee at the time with her husband's family, but all she wanted was her family. One of seven girls, she longed for the connection of her siblings and parents. Breastfeeding went very well from the start and Hannah says that Seth was "such an easy baby". She was able to be home with him for his first 15 months when she returned to work so they could move back to Kentucky.
After a smooth transition home, and with the support of their families, Hannah soon learned she was pregnant with Aden. Things went very well and she worked right up until the day she was induced with him, again at 39 weeks due to growth concerns. This labor was much different and after 8 hours without pain relief, Hannah found herself exhausted and opted for an epidural so she could rest. Two hours later, Aden arrived after just 12 minutes of pushing. Breastfeeding was more difficult this time due to latch issues, but they were able to wean from using a nipple shield at 6 months and went on to nurse until he was 16 months old.
Knowing they wanted another baby, Hannnah and her husband were able to conceive right away. She felt lucky that she was feeling so well until the day she knew something was wrong Hannah went to use the restroom before church service and noticed she was bleeding. She ran out crying to her husband, who tried to reassure her but she knew in her heart she was losing their baby. "I lost our baby at 5pm, that night. From the first spot of blood at 11am, to having a complete miscarriage by 5pm. I remember a terrible sharp pain, and me just screaming for my husband. I remember the tiny baby in my hand, and just crying "I lost our baby", over and over. The next day was supposed to be my first prenatal appointment, I remember the rain, and all the happiness. I was just cold, and empty. They did a sonogram to make sure I had a full miscarriage, and I did. I saw my empty uterus and just cried"
Hannah was devastated following her loss and remembers being sad all of the time. She stopped eating for a few days, had a hard time being at home, and had difficult feelings towards other pregnant woman. She had been given the go ahead to try again when her cycle returned and conceived immediately. Hannah's pregnancy has been going well but she still finds herself nervous ever day. She's thrilled to be pregnant again, thrilled to have this baby but the fear of losing another baby is present alongside her joy quite often.
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