The amazing April Mosqus and Zoe (5)
April is single mom but didn't ever imagine that she would be. She was in a long term relationship with Zoe's dad that didn't work out. He left her while she was pregnant and the stress prevented her from enjoying things as much as she'd hoped to. "I worried about finances. I worried how I would work and care for my daughter at the same time. I felt guilty for being pregnant and ashamed. I hid my pregnancy as long as possible. I didn't feel joy but fear. People congratulating me or showing excitement only made me more afraid. I considered abortion. I even met with an adoption agency. I wasn't sure I could provide my daughter with the life she deserved".
April says that she found support through some faith-based organizations, including a wonderful woman who became her doula. A month before their daughter was due Zoe's father returned, wanting to be part of their lives. She was grateful yet angry and says that she was looking forward to the birth of their daughter for the first time. A week before her due date Zoe's dad showed up with a suitcase and several well-loved stuffed animals from his childhood. He was ready to be a dad.
Her pregnancy had been uncomplicated and uneventful, luckily, for someone who didn't have her first pre-natal visit until she was 3 months along. She commuted into Manhattan everyday and went to work. Two days before her due date, upon exiting the subway station near her home, April was overtaken by a sharp, shooting pain one of her legs and could no longer walk. She grabbed onto the fence that surrounded the local public school and slowly crept her way along. People stopped and asked if she needed help but she said no. "I managed to call Zoe's father and he quickly met me by the school. He started calling taxi's to help us home. Regardless of the situation we were in, some refused to take us due to the short distance to our home!"
Once home, they realized they needed to go to the hospital and she soon found herself laying down in the back of a taxi. The journey had begun. Things happened very quickly at the hospital. The pain and inability to use her leg distracted her from birth. Her doctor ordered neurologists and orthopedists to examine her. Doctors came in quickly, asked questions and left. Everyone seemed somewhat puzzled as to why she could no longer use her leg and X-rays could not be taken. It was decided that the best course of action would be a cesarean. Her goal had been a natural birth, but she didn't rule out medical intervention if needed.
"At 8:30 that night a little girl weighing seven pounds and twelve ounces, wrapped up tight like a little burrito, was placed on my chest by my anesthesiologist. She looked at me with eyes open and I fell in love. Zoe was an easy baby. She only cried if hungry or if she wanted to be held. She slept well. Once Zoe's father and I were no longer overwhelmed by being new parents, the anger I felt towards him resurfaced and the fighting started. We tried to keep it together but it feel apart when Zoe was 8 months old. We ended up in court. It took time to heal the wounds but her dad and I now have a very good relationship. He married and had another child, so Zoe has a little sister. Everyone is on good terms. Being a single mom has it's up and downs. It can be very lonely but since it is just the two of us we share a very close special bond."
"I have followed you guys on Instagram for some time now. I love the concept. Every mother's story is so special and unique. The photography is beautiful. This will be a special moment to share with my daughter that we will always have."