Sara Symons (30) and Finley (2.5).
New Jersey. Photographed in West Springfield, Mass.
"I was excited and thrilled about the possibility of becoming a mom when I had my first positive pregnancy test. However, when I went to the doctor to confirm the pregnancy I was heartbroken to learn it was a chemical pregnancy."
Thankfully, her second pregnancy went well.
"I was under the impression that after giving birth - the baby simply latches on to your breast and the breastfeeding journey begins. - Boy, was I wrong! We quickly learned Finn had a lip tie that needed surgery. After the surgery and a consultation with a lactation consultant, and much needed support from my husband, we start an amazing breastfeeding relationship that is still going strong today. I am so thankful I reached out for support before quitting. I feel as though society causes us to believe it will be this natural easy transition. But instead, breastfeeding often begins with confusion and pain which is something I never expected.
Luckily, I had an easy recovery from childbirth which I credit to a drug free vaginal delivery. I did not prepare for the birth but went in blindly. I am so happy I stood my ground and had an all natural child birth. It is just another badge of honor I get to wear and I feel kick ass as a woman!
Motherhood can be scary when you go home from the hospital and all extra hands are done helping. But instead of being scared- I just followed my gut. I listened to every need of Finn's and that made me feel confident in my parenting. Finn nursed on demand and continues to. We enjoy a beautiful co-sleeping relationship that I would never change for the world. Doctors and society makes us think co-sleeping is so dangerous. I tried crying it out for one night (10 minutes) but my husband and I looked at each other in tears and promised we would never do that to Finley again. Finn needs me not just during the day but he needs me 24/7. It is my job to provide this comfort to him all hours of the day and night. It gets tiring but I just remember there will be a time when he no longer wants to sleep with me or hug and kiss me all the time. I am soaking in all these moments since I will never get to experience them again.
Motherhood has given me so much more confidence and power. I no longer see our bodies as purely sexual beings. I look at our bodies as temples to create and nourish little humans into this world. My body may look completely different since having Finn but I am proud of what it did for those nine full months."