The beautiful Jennifer Kincaid and Cara (2.5)
Jennifer is a previous project participant. You can view her initial photo and bio from our Austin tour stop here.
Jennifer and her husband needed some fertility help to conceive Cara but she went on to have a healthy pregnancy. She carried to 41 weeks but found her birth to be quite traumatic. Jennifer had prepared and educated herself the best she could - attended Bradley classes, went to La Leche League meetings, anything she could do to prepare she did, including finding care providers she trusted and felt supported her and her birth plan. She has a philosophy that you prepare for the worst but hope for the best, so she was mentally prepared for all outcomes but ultimately didn't feel supported during the birth process.
Jennifer didn't feel there was anyone guiding her through her labor and birth and there wasn't a lot of interaction with doctor. There came a point that her doctor came in and told her that if she didn't consent to a cesarean she would need to sign a form stating that she was endangering she and her child's life. While there had been interventions prior to this including an internal fetal monitor placed in Cara's scalp, no one had mentioned that she was in need of a surgical delivery and she was taken aback by her doctor's abruptness. She asked for time to process and was given 30 minutes before the doctor came back and they rushed for a cesarean.
Jennifer says that from there things went well, she and Cara were able to initiate a wonderful breastfeeding relationship and she's still nursing today. When her experience was fresh she realized she didn't want to think about even though she knew she needed to process. She was grateful to ultimately find support in her local International Cesarean Awareness Network (ICAN) which has greatly helped her healing.
Now that they are considering having another child she's found the worries, anxieties and fears resurface. They are hoping to have a VBAC and she has since found a different provider but she still questions if she's made the right choice. Ultimately, she's again hoping for the best after preparing for everything she can.
Jennifer was still on a postpartum high when she shared her story previously. Even with a difficult birth experience she felt her body was awesome for growing and feeding her baby. Yet as time has gone on she's lost some that. She found herself forgetting all that she was capable of and instead falling into societal traps and norms. - the hypothetical chasing the perfection of loosing those five more pounds. She's working on refocusing and instead reminding herself what her goals are and where her worth is, to focus on finding her self-love and strength again.