The radiant Ruthi Moses with her daughter Lula (2.5). Ruthi is also mom to Lilian (5.5 - not pictured). Ruthi got pregnant with her first by surprise at 23. She says she was a little selfish and not quite ready to jump in but did it anyway and it's been great. Her pregnancy was boring (in the best of ways!) and she saw an OB throughout. She was induced per his recommendation on her due date and didn't respond well to the meds. She hadn't dilated at all so she had a foley catheter and her waters broken. She was trying to do it without medication but once the pitocin started, needed an epidural. She saw her OB for 5 minutes as she was pushing Lillian out and that was it. Ruthi says she didn't realize it until later, how traumatic the experience had been. She dealt with a lot of depression and needed to work through a lot of things in dealing with her labor. Ruthi had an early miscarriage in between Lilian and Lula and says that Lula's pregnancy stuck when Lilian was 2. She had a great team of midwives and a wonderful doula along with her husband present for her younger daughter's birth and says it was one of the most peaceful and empowering things she's ever done. The pain was fleeting and though she apologized for screaming her midwife reassured her that she had breathed her baby out. She didn't suffer postpartum depression after Lula's birth, or says she dealt with it in a different way, due to the support of the community of mothers she surrounded herself with. Ruthi nursed both of her daughters, non stop, for a cumulative 5 years, 2 months, 11 days and some odd hours. Lula recently weaned and Ruthi says she couldn't imagine doing it any other way. It was important to her that Lula could take a bottle of pumped milk so her husband could pitch in. She says she was clenched with Lilian and no one else could step in which may have contributed to her depression so she learned to unclench this time. Ruthi suffered another miscarriage on February 2nd and says, "I'm choosing to use this experience as a documentation of my body at this point, and to help me move on".