The marvelous Corrie Metz with her boys Nolan (7), Ephraim (5) and Arden (2). Corrie has always dealt with a lot of anxiety and depression and used to cut and self harm quite a bit. Her first pregnancy changed the way the way she viewed the world so negatively. She had a healthy pregnancy and vaginal birth but Nolan had to spend a few days in the special care nursery due to jaundice and at the time she thought that was the worst thing ever and just cried and cried that her baby was broken. Her second pregnancy was healthy as well but Ephraim was born with a hernia that had to be surgically repaired at two months which again, felt to her like the worst thing that could ever happen. Her anxiety got even worse with her second son and she was so worried that she would drive into a body of water with them she carried life jackets in the car. Her third pregnancy was healthy and though she there was never a concern. When Corrie had her last ultrasound she felt like something was off. She noticed that Arden's eyes looked differently from her other boys but she didn't want to be the first one to suggest that something was wrong with her baby. She had another vaginal birth and when they handed him to her she just knew but was still afraid to say anything. About an hour later her midwife came to speak with her to say her son had a lot of markers for Down Syndrome. Because of Arden's low tone he was having difficulty keeping his airway open and needed some time in NICU but he's in perfect healthy today and hasn't shown any signs of heart of thyroid problems. Corrie says that she wasn't prepared to be the parent of a child with different abilities. Her husband always knew it was something he could do but she was too selfish and thought it would be too much. She lived in a fog for several months and then one day it just got easier. She was told in the hospital that babies with Down Syndrome couldn't breastfeed but she was determined and Arden is still nursing today, the longest of all of her boys. She says that Arden's existence has allowed her to let go of a lot of her anxiety and worries. She's more able to take things as they come now and just wants to put him out there as much as possible.