The amazing Amber Holdwick, Audrey (2), and William (5 weeks). Amber has also lost three pregnancies to early miscarriage - two prior to Audrey's conception and one prior to Will's.
Amber was diagnosed with PCOS after not having regular cycles and when they sought fertility treatments, learned that her husband was also having issues with male factor infertility. Their specialists told them it wasn't likely they would conceive without fertility assistance such as IVF and having biological children of their own was not a guarantee.
They began with IUI treatments and Amber was able to conceive twice but lost both babies early on. When Amber was newly pregnancy with Audrey she passed a palm sized blood clot and thought she was miscarrying again. She and her husband cried together but felt that they didn't need to seek medical attention right away having been through this before. She went into her regularly scheduled appointment a few days later and was surprised to see that Audrey was just fine.
The remainder of Amber's pregnancy was physically healthy but she dealt with a lot of anxiety throughout. Audrey arrived 11 days prior to her due date after a long but uncomplicated labor. Amber was thrilled to have her baby earth side but found that her anxiety continued through her early months. She doesn't recall exactly when thing cleared just that she eventually felt she had settled in.
Choosing to have another baby required some preparation knowing that more fertility treatments lay ahead. Amber was surprised to conceive without any interventions but again, lost the baby early on. They planned to go back for evaluations and treatment when she learned she was pregnant with William. Amber's anxiety was not entirely absent but much improved with William and she went on to have a very healthy pregnancy. She carried to two days post dates when she went into labor and things moved very quickly this time. She chose not to have an epidural but did need antibiotics for Group B Strep. William arrived in just a couple pushes before the doctor even had a chance to arrive and she felt great afterwards.
Amber wanted to tell her story to help break some of the silence surrounding infertility. She felt like she couldn't talk about it for some time or acknowledge how much grief she has felt along the way. She's since made the choice to be open about her struggles in hopes of not only healing herself, but acknowledging other women on similar paths to parenthood.