Vanessa Siegfried (29) and Luca (12 weeks). Vanessa has also had an abortion.
San Diego, CA.
Vanessa shares -
"I have always had issues loving my body. As a new mom, there are some days when I feel proud and empowered, knowing what my body is capable of but too many days I still feel insecure and hyper focused on the flaws I see.
Luca was born 4 weeks premature and because of his early arrival, I felt underprepared taking him home. I tend to pick up new skills easily and typically find success when I put my full effort towards a new endeavor. However, when I wasn't getting the hang of breastfeeding and Luca was barely sleeping through the night by four weeks, I felt like a failure. I found myself staring at him and crying, feeling like I wasn't doing him justice as his mom.
As the weeks progressed, I have gotten better at accepting the aspects of new motherhood that I simply can't control and celebrating all the beautiful moments that Luca and I get to share. I work very hard on a daily basis to remind myself how lucky I am to have a happy, healthy little boy and that being a perfect mom isn't what my baby needs. He needs a happy mom who loves him unconditionally. That I can do.
When it comes time to make tough decisions, you have to do what your heart and your mind are telling you is the right thing to do. Not everyone will agree, and those who don't will echo the loudest in your head, but you'll know what is right, so have faith in yourself.
This is a chance for me to combat my body issues postpartum and to share that moment with my child, who I hope will learn to always love himself, inside and out."