Lisa Douglass (34), Natalie (4), and Samantha (16 months)
Lisa shares -
“Becoming a mother has forever changed the way I view my body. I used to have a terrible body image. I struggled with eating, hated what I saw in the mirror. After having my girls I realized what an amazing thing the female body is. I was able to grow and feed them with this body. I am a lot "squishier" than I used to be but for the first time in my life I have self confidence.
I got pregnant right after getting married. All I had ever wanted my entire life was to be a wife and mother and now everything seemed to be falling into place. We found out we were having a girl and were excited to buy all the little clothes and shoes and decorate the nursery.
At 22 weeks I suddenly felt a gush of fluid come out of me. We went to the emergency room where I was told I was leaking amniotic fluid and needed to be rushed to a larger hospital. There we were told that I would likely go into labor that night and there would be nothing doctors could do to save our baby. I have never felt so heartbroken.
I did not end up going into labor and by some miracle, after 10 days of hospital bed rest, the doctor concluded that my rupture had healed and I would likely continue my pregnancy to full term. However, after the rupture my anxiety was through the roof. I was afraid to even get out of bed because I thought it might make me go into labor. My doctor started me on anti-anxiety medication which did help, but I still worried.
I gave birth to a beautiful, healthy little girl at 37 weeks. Even though she and I were healthy I continued to worry. I felt as if we somehow since she had survived the rupture something bad would now happen to her. I was sure she would just stop breathing, or get cancer. Every cough, every sneeze, I was sure was going to result in a deadly illness.
When she was two I got pregnant for the second time. This time around there were no complications. It was very healing for me mentally to have a healthy pregnancy and another healthy little girl.
After both births I suffered greatly from PPD but I was lucky to have an amazing support system and a fantastic doctor to help me through it.
I have been so inspired by this movement. There is so much "mom shaming" lately. I love to see real women, living real life and just being honest. Seeing other women and their imperfect bodies have really helped me to appreciate my own appearance even more. I just hope that by doing this I can help inspire others as well.”