Chelsea Aiken (36) and Walter (3 months)
Chelsea shares -
“My body now belongs to my sweet little love! I often joke that I am a vessel of nourishment and snuggles. It's crazy feeling like your body is a utility-watching my breasts inflate and deflate with feedings, constantly wearing spit up and drool, being the thing your baby kicks when he's figuring out his legs...it's amazing. I had all of these expectations of myself to lose the lingering rolls, strengthen my weakened arms and legs, get back into shape so I can at least walk to the car without feeling like I'm going to pass out. The list goes on yet, I don’t really care. I think about it as a point in time, a healing process for my body and a time for my son to have everything he needs to be healthy. Did I think I would be back in shape Immediately after having him? Absolutely! I have a feeling this is only the beginning of sharing my life and being surprised at how little is actually mine anymore. It's pretty exciting.
I feel amazing. The hardest thing I've had to adjust to is how much everything is about this little guy! Every time someone asks how I'm doing all I can think about is how distracted and worried I always am. It's hard for me because I'm used to traveling, visiting family and friends etc. I've noticed when I'm out with friends and with family I'm trying to hold my normal conversations and yet I'm so distracted! I'm literally thinking about what the babe is going to need or needs. This is a big adjustment for me. When he cries it hurts my heart, another interesting feeling. I have never cared about something so much in my life and that is terrifying yet incredible. I swore I'd be the mom that still did everything I did before, just bring him along. I'd take care of my body and still snuggle my fiancé all night... well, this isn't exactly the case which has been another major adjustment!
I've been fortunate to exclusively breastfeed and have had 4.5 months of maternity leave. Each day we find small adventures to embark on, I barely shower, I try to eat healthy but definitely don't, and I sleep with my face near the co-sleeper so I can hear if my little one is crying. Luckily my fiancé is supportive and understands this crazy adjustment period (he also makes dinner)! It's all about teamwork and I have a great support system.
A few things that add to my worries is my son has reflux and was born with torticollis. Sometimes he's extra fussy and my heart hurts a little more than I thought it would (I hate not knowing what's hurting him or how to help him). I like to think he's just working out a few kinks! He's perfect in my eyes!”