The amazing Amanda White with her daughter Mallory (2). Amanda is also pregnant with her second daughter, due in June. She had expected that it would take a long time to get pregnant after hearing others struggle with infertility but she was able to conceive surprisingly quickly. She was a bit shocked and said it took about the first 10 weeks for her to get used to the fact that she was going to have a baby. She had a healthy pregnancy and a short, uneventful delivery. She was surprised to have an episiotomy without being asked for consent and while she feels it was necessary, the experience gave her reason to ask more questions this time. Amanda says that she spent a lot of time preparing for her pregnancy and birth but like so many, didn't do a lot to prepare for the postpartum period. She had hoped to breastfeed and struggled for the first two weeks before switching to formula which was incredibly difficult for her. She saw lactation consultants and talked to doctors but things were incredibly painful and she felt unprepared and uneducated. In hindsight, she thinks Mallory may have had a tongue or lip tie that was undiagnosed as well as flat nipples. While she feels more educated and hopes to try again with this baby she says she has much different expectations and if it doesn't work out that's okay. This pregnancy has been very different from her first, she's been more sick and found it to be more taxing. She feels more educated though and is much more able to advocate for herself and ask questions when she needs to. She hopes that even if things go similarly she'll be able okay with it. She knows she made the best decision with her first daughter and knows that this time around whether she's able to breastfeed for one day or three weeks or even longer it will be a success.