Christy Zeringue and Pearl (3 mo)
Portland, OR
I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks. It was my first pregnancy. I went in for my first ultrasound. I knew something was wrong when the tech became quiet and then when to get the radiologist. There was no heartbeat. I was devastated. My body did abort the fetus. My doctor suggested I get a DNC since I was at least 10 weeks. I became pregnant again a little over a year later. The fear that something may go wrong and I would lose the baby was something I struggled with during the entire pregnancy, even though the baby and I were both healthy. At 38.5 weeks, I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia. After work on a Friday, my midwife had me go to labor and delivery to be induced. My plan of having a water birth was denied. It was a long induction process. I gave birth on Monday. All of the classes and books did not really prepare me for the reality of actually giving birth. It was the most amazing and most difficult thing.
How has parenthood impacted your body image?
I am still learning to love my new mom body. I have always been a little insecure about my body. I feel that it is important to have a positive body image, no matter the size or shape, so that I can be a positive role model for my daughter and her peers.
What was your postpartum experience?
I underestimated the postpartum experience. I thought that things would just be the same, but with a baby. Boy was I mistaken! I did not really have too much support except my husband, but he worked during the day. I struggled with postpartum depression and anxiety. My doctors suggested that I take medication. I worked really hard to breastfeed my baby and decided that I did not want to take medication. I worked with a counselor to help me through the postpartum depression and anxiety. I am still learning to be a mother.
What is your truth that you'd pass along to your former self, or a new parent?
Believe in yourself. Know that you are a wonderful mother and a strong, capable woman.
Why did you choose to participate in this movement and share your story?
I chose to participate in this movement to empower myself and other women. Storytelling and motherhood binds us together.