Tekeshia Merriman-Lewis (22 - she/her) and Zola Rose (8 mo)
Minneapolis, MN
“Kimberly Nichole was stillborn on July 21st, 2017. We believe her death was caused by gestational diabetes that I did not know I had until after the birth. In August 2018, I had a twin demise at 12 weeks pregnant. My daughter Zola is the surviving twin.
How has parenthood impacted your body image?
During my pregnancies I have felt confident but after my second pregnancy I am extremely insecure. I truly don’t feel like myself anymore. My confidence goes up and down but for the most part I don’t want to be seen.
What was your postpartum experience?
Being homeless after my having both babies made my journeys very hard. Being a single mother for the first few months was challenging but instinct kicked in and I did everything I needed for Zola. I didn't really have time from myself so I felt very drained and unprepared. I never expected to be in the situation so my reality hit me hard very quick . Even though I was in a very bad position all the way around, having my daughter was the most beautiful moment of my life and I am so grateful to have her in my life.
What is one piece of knowledge you'd pass along to your former self, or a new parent?
To my former self and any new parent I would say "YOU KNOW YOUR BODY, trust your instincts and communicate about you feel. Ask questions if you have them, ask for tests if you want them. Never allow anyone to convince you that something is wrong/right about your body if you genuinely believe otherwise.
Why did you choose to participate in this movement and share your story?
Knowing and loving your your body is so important. Taking care of your vessel is tedious but necessary for a life full of joy. As I scrolled the pictures of women that have been involved with the project I teared up.To my surprise these women looked like me, they didn't have perfect postpartum bodies; they had curves, stretch marks, breastfeeding children. These are the images that should come up when you search "postpartum mothers". The norm should be that there is no norm. Everyone just comes as they are. Just like everyone has their own birth story, they have their unique postpartum story, and you are telling it.